Hi haze and moon, I've finally become a bartender( @marriot hotel, Barnone and TheLivingRoom) after wanting it for like dont know how long. I initially thought that being a bartender is going to be easy but wow, it isnt. 1st day of work was challenging, it is not much on the work that was tough, its the people there. Newcomers dont usually get welcome.. Its the really senior bartenders that have the patience and the knowledge of teaching to teach us. Gossips there travel around fast ( and i tot girls were better at it ), it only took an hour for all the bartender to know. Its my 2nd & a half week here and is still holding on. I've managed to swallow my pride for that long, i wouldn't have done that if not for some complicating issues i had. Nontheless, I'm learning alot more now and hope that they have more patience with my slow-paced intake of product knowledge.
And dear moon, y do u keep ignoring my endless whispers of wishes thoughout my life? Are u receiving em or are my wishes still pending in ur inbox which u have not yet seen? I hope its the latter. Goodnight moon, see you tomorrow night :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
Mixed Feelings
Hello again. Mixed feelings happens when something out of the ordinary took placed and people don't know how to react to it. Feelings are expressed both physically and mentally. Its hard to hide emotions from others when we dont really have the power to do it. As someone tell you somethings that you may not like or will feel unhappy about but you have to agree with them because they are the truth, you can nod and create a fake smile hoping that your facial expression dont give you away. However it aways fail because facial expression tells everything, its only a matter of whether you can detect it or not.
I've always been trying to fake an expression to hide my thoughts and feelings. And I've always failed, badly. But why do I want to lie to people about how i feel? Maybe because i am more of a agreeing type of person where everything someone says is always correct and i dont bother to do a background check myself. I agree to make people feel happy that they are always correct. I agree even as it cost some of my pride. I agree because I think for people more than i thought for myself. Sometimes i want to have someother's personality whereby they are able to stick to their own ground and not get pushed around easily. Its really hard for me to change. I think its either genetically made or I have no guts. My father have aways been someone who will give in for others (except when he is hungry), he can be so good to someone till that person take advantage and he still continue to give in. During Chinese New Year every year, I see my father trying to start a conversation with a relative and that relative usually will reply to 2 or 3 of the first few question. Then my relative will start to ignore him and talk to someone else. It happened so many time that i've noticed it. This fucking shows that people dont appreciate good things people are doing to them. Just like how i'm not appreciating my parents even as i constantly remind myself to do so. I have to change.
Crush, is a 5 letter word that start most relationships. I have lots of crushes on others at the sight of them or when someone thinks she is pretty. There are 2 mistakes here, firstly is liking someone too easily, secondly, its not having a mind of my own. I pretty much hate the first 1 more. I just cannot stop myself from liking others just at the sight of them, I wonder if it is an act of desperation of wanting someone so badly or is it just me. About the not having a mind of my own part, its like when i see this quite good looking girl and wanted to know how my friends think about her. If they give me a positive feedback, the next thing that will happen to me is going crazy over her. That is probably the reason i feel so depressed over my love life all the time because I usually lose the fight against her heart. I will then start thinking about her bad points that i dont like and try to make myself feel disgusted by her(which is impossible). I will want to act cool and everyhing that a girl might like in front of her and make her like me instead but hey, its just me, i know they will never happen. When all else fail, I just want to be friend with her despite knowing that part of me have not given up and still wants her as my other. I cant blame life for all this as life has given me a proper family, house, friends blah blah blah (comparing people from 3rd world country, I am already very lucky to be borned alive and well). I cant blame girls because I'm the one trying to attract them. I HAVE TO START TO LEARN TO BLAME MYSELF. Its only fair.
Different -> this word allows me to look at people with a much better view. I have concluded that everybody on Earth is Different. Lets talk about the Differences in human characteristics. I can find someone who likes the food i love, wears the same style but he cant think like me. Or i can find someone who can think like me but dont share my set of personalities. This is one good way to think when trying to forgive or before you start judge people(which everyone is doing it so often now). You have to understand that those people at fault do not think like you, they may never get the idea why its wrong to do something. Even if they know its wrong to do something, its their nature to do it and its not against their conscience because they are Different from everyone else. So its not up to us to judge people, its not up to anybody to judge people. I'm not saying criminals should be let free, because sometime there must be a control somewhere to a certain limit. Thats when judging comes in, its not up to one person to come up with the rule and punishment but the majority who agree on what's right and what's wrong(majority-> people(s) with a sane mind). Everyone has their own set of personalities and characteristics, no two person have similar one. We all think/react/do things Differently, 2 person my agree on the same thing, 5 others may not. SO STOP THE JUDGING AND START KEEPING THINGS TO YOURSELF. Everyone deserve a chance to live their own life. I am going to end with a quote i came out myself: Others cant make you do things you dont want to, but u can do what they cant. (think about it)
AND I WANT TO BE A BARTENDER!
I've always been trying to fake an expression to hide my thoughts and feelings. And I've always failed, badly. But why do I want to lie to people about how i feel? Maybe because i am more of a agreeing type of person where everything someone says is always correct and i dont bother to do a background check myself. I agree to make people feel happy that they are always correct. I agree even as it cost some of my pride. I agree because I think for people more than i thought for myself. Sometimes i want to have someother's personality whereby they are able to stick to their own ground and not get pushed around easily. Its really hard for me to change. I think its either genetically made or I have no guts. My father have aways been someone who will give in for others (except when he is hungry), he can be so good to someone till that person take advantage and he still continue to give in. During Chinese New Year every year, I see my father trying to start a conversation with a relative and that relative usually will reply to 2 or 3 of the first few question. Then my relative will start to ignore him and talk to someone else. It happened so many time that i've noticed it. This fucking shows that people dont appreciate good things people are doing to them. Just like how i'm not appreciating my parents even as i constantly remind myself to do so. I have to change.
Crush, is a 5 letter word that start most relationships. I have lots of crushes on others at the sight of them or when someone thinks she is pretty. There are 2 mistakes here, firstly is liking someone too easily, secondly, its not having a mind of my own. I pretty much hate the first 1 more. I just cannot stop myself from liking others just at the sight of them, I wonder if it is an act of desperation of wanting someone so badly or is it just me. About the not having a mind of my own part, its like when i see this quite good looking girl and wanted to know how my friends think about her. If they give me a positive feedback, the next thing that will happen to me is going crazy over her. That is probably the reason i feel so depressed over my love life all the time because I usually lose the fight against her heart. I will then start thinking about her bad points that i dont like and try to make myself feel disgusted by her(which is impossible). I will want to act cool and everyhing that a girl might like in front of her and make her like me instead but hey, its just me, i know they will never happen. When all else fail, I just want to be friend with her despite knowing that part of me have not given up and still wants her as my other. I cant blame life for all this as life has given me a proper family, house, friends blah blah blah (comparing people from 3rd world country, I am already very lucky to be borned alive and well). I cant blame girls because I'm the one trying to attract them. I HAVE TO START TO LEARN TO BLAME MYSELF. Its only fair.
Different -> this word allows me to look at people with a much better view. I have concluded that everybody on Earth is Different. Lets talk about the Differences in human characteristics. I can find someone who likes the food i love, wears the same style but he cant think like me. Or i can find someone who can think like me but dont share my set of personalities. This is one good way to think when trying to forgive or before you start judge people(which everyone is doing it so often now). You have to understand that those people at fault do not think like you, they may never get the idea why its wrong to do something. Even if they know its wrong to do something, its their nature to do it and its not against their conscience because they are Different from everyone else. So its not up to us to judge people, its not up to anybody to judge people. I'm not saying criminals should be let free, because sometime there must be a control somewhere to a certain limit. Thats when judging comes in, its not up to one person to come up with the rule and punishment but the majority who agree on what's right and what's wrong(majority-> people(s) with a sane mind). Everyone has their own set of personalities and characteristics, no two person have similar one. We all think/react/do things Differently, 2 person my agree on the same thing, 5 others may not. SO STOP THE JUDGING AND START KEEPING THINGS TO YOURSELF. Everyone deserve a chance to live their own life. I am going to end with a quote i came out myself: Others cant make you do things you dont want to, but u can do what they cant. (think about it)
AND I WANT TO BE A BARTENDER!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Service Staff
Me: Hi Sir, any drinks for you? We have japanese green tea, juices and beers
Sir: Got what? Can say again?
Me: We got green tea, juices and beers
Sir: Green tea free 1 issit?
Me: Ya, so green tea for you?
Sir: Then?
Me: (walks off to get his tea)
(BASED ON A TRUE STORY)
Why are people not treating waiters as if they are also humanoid? Is it because we get lower pay than u then we are supposed to get treated this way? I'm not saying all customers are like that, but most of them are rude and impatient..
I've worked as a promoter before, its a different kind of job where people think highly of u as u are some kind of brand ambassador. They will then respect you and talk to u properly. They adore you just because they think what u are doing is cool.
People should learn to be courteous to people for being who they are. But noo, they just have to be a fucking bitch and spoils other people day. They think they are far more superior than the others. All of these RICH and ignorant people will learn their lesson 1 day. And i hope they learn it both pysically and psychologically.
Learning can be 1 thing, changing is another. 90% fails all the time, guess we will just get used to them and their judges.. After getting used to it, the victims will finally learn something they dint think they will before. Increase in tolerance and patience in oneself and best of all, emotional control. Its just like telling the lesser man:"I dont give a shit".
Sir: Got what? Can say again?
Me: We got green tea, juices and beers
Sir: Green tea free 1 issit?
Me: Ya, so green tea for you?
Sir: Then?
Me: (walks off to get his tea)
(BASED ON A TRUE STORY)
Why are people not treating waiters as if they are also humanoid? Is it because we get lower pay than u then we are supposed to get treated this way? I'm not saying all customers are like that, but most of them are rude and impatient..
I've worked as a promoter before, its a different kind of job where people think highly of u as u are some kind of brand ambassador. They will then respect you and talk to u properly. They adore you just because they think what u are doing is cool.
People should learn to be courteous to people for being who they are. But noo, they just have to be a fucking bitch and spoils other people day. They think they are far more superior than the others. All of these RICH and ignorant people will learn their lesson 1 day. And i hope they learn it both pysically and psychologically.
Learning can be 1 thing, changing is another. 90% fails all the time, guess we will just get used to them and their judges.. After getting used to it, the victims will finally learn something they dint think they will before. Increase in tolerance and patience in oneself and best of all, emotional control. Its just like telling the lesser man:"I dont give a shit".
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Boredom
Ah i'm back... now that no1 is going to read this due to my long inexistance in blogger.com, i can now say whatever i want and no one will know, hopefully.. Reasons being, i want to improve my english by typing out loud and not going to write a diary because i find it really gay( with all the teddy bears cover and its colourful bookmark). Imagine letting ur mother find out that u have a diary and after she reads bout it, she is going to hold a family gathering the coming weekend and announce to the gossip-mongers-aunties that she have a son who writes diary.
Life is as sad as (refer to date below;last post). Yes it still is and idk if im getting used to it or im still learning to get use to it. Life, when are you going to show the good side of you because even after i've tried, it still dont work. So pls tell me if i should try harder or just let u take a toll on me.. I NEED PREACHES FROM PEOPLE I RESPECT FROM THIS. Come on life, u know i will never give up on you so pls dont give up on me too.
Wonder if luck is real or issit some coincidental shit happening at the same time that makes it looks almost perfect that people will die for. I see people praying for changes everyday but i dont see it happening, maybe not in my eyes but an act of faith everyday might change it all. We never know.
Now, im just clinging to whatever that may come my way and swing to the next, hopefully something good might happen.
PS: THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST, ITS JUST MY THOUGHTS SO FAR...
PS#2: I KNOW NO1 IS READING THIS BUT I STILL GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHAT PPL MIGHT SAY, IM GOING KRAZY(love that song~)
Life is as sad as (refer to date below;last post). Yes it still is and idk if im getting used to it or im still learning to get use to it. Life, when are you going to show the good side of you because even after i've tried, it still dont work. So pls tell me if i should try harder or just let u take a toll on me.. I NEED PREACHES FROM PEOPLE I RESPECT FROM THIS. Come on life, u know i will never give up on you so pls dont give up on me too.
Wonder if luck is real or issit some coincidental shit happening at the same time that makes it looks almost perfect that people will die for. I see people praying for changes everyday but i dont see it happening, maybe not in my eyes but an act of faith everyday might change it all. We never know.
Now, im just clinging to whatever that may come my way and swing to the next, hopefully something good might happen.
PS: THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST, ITS JUST MY THOUGHTS SO FAR...
PS#2: I KNOW NO1 IS READING THIS BUT I STILL GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHAT PPL MIGHT SAY, IM GOING KRAZY(love that song~)
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